CNY feeling!!

Hmm.. This year CNY is quite the same as last year...

1. CNY eve I have a reunion dinner with family and grandparents
   
2. CNY day 1 visit Grandparents.. and collect Ang Bao to them.

It is the same old routine.. heehee!! Well Ang Bao is collecting lesser and lesser.. ;)
Well it is ok, I don't care about Ang Bao.. as I can earn for myself. hehee!!

Anyway, CNY day 1 I won a lot in mj although it is just a short game. haha!! It is the first time I won in CNY. Maybe because I have a "福将" (Fu Jiang aka good fortune general) by my side, I get to win much.. But Like I say, if I won much in mj ... I bound to lose something in life for once.. When I lost much in mj, I get something in life for once.. Very irony right? It is my theory.. Coz it happened a lot of times before so I cant rule out that theory..

Anyway.. ytd night before I go back to home, I took a cab. The cab driver drove me back home... then we talked a lot of life... karma.. Destiny.. A lot of stuffs.. Man.. I didnt know that I can be quite click to strangers.. Hmmm... Is that an ability, or is it my easy going personality.. I don't know.. We even talked for at least a hr before I left the cab.. haha!! What a friendly weird guy like me, right?

feeling..

It had been quite a weeks plus... since I blogging.. I met someone and my feeling is liked roller-coaster this week.

1. Normal feeling (Thursday)


2. Low feeling (Friday)


3. High feeling (Saturday)


4. Low feeling (Sunday)


5. Normal feeling (Monday)


6. Low feeling (Tuesday)


7. High feeling (Wednesday)


8. Low feeling (Thursday)


9. Low feeling (Friday)

Well overall... I am feeling very low.. be it low morale or what.. I just don't know what am I doing... Now being scolded by parents for staying out late almost everyday.. come back the next day early morning... I am a guy who had a lot of problems in mind and wish to think about them... and think of how to solve them... The problems are career, love, relationships, friends and health. Now I go out almost everyday because I dun want to think of them... It is giving me headaches... I am getting bad headaches now.. man.. I wish I have someone beside me to help me..haiZ!!!

a day after the work..

Well, these few days, I am working lately and even staying in for work.. but I think they because I am medically unfit plus my status, I don't get to work much...

Some people say"Wow, XXX, You are so relax... See, you can no need to do this and that... Envy you lah!!"

I feel very uncomfortable when hearing this comments, I feel very bad..

Other people say " XXX, don't mind what they say... wait you faint then how? You better don't do anything.. just go relax one corner."

My feeling becomes from bad to worse.. I was thinking that it is not my fault that I want it to be like that. I myself feel very uncomfortable when I saw my co-workers are working yet I can only watch them do works... I am the guy who don't like to sit one corner and watch other work..If I can help out, I always one of the first to volunteer to help. But because of my status, now I was like a burden to them..


I wish to post out!!!!

I wish to post out!!!!

I wish to post out!!!!

Anyway... It is another big day for me.. tml.

(*_*)

3 Days to D day!!! FREEEEEE!!! FROM WORKSSS

myself (nothing much.. dun look)

hmmm... I have been thinking about myself whether I am very bad in starting a relationship for myself or not. In my whole life, I only have a relationship. I really dun know how to start a relationship.. maybe I am really shy with girls.. or maybe I don't know how to start a conversation. People think I am funny, I always make people laugh... my way of talking amuse them.. I myself think the same. I am just average looking guy.. if I like a girl, I always don't let them know I like them. I cared about them but I doesn't know how to make a girl fall for me..

I guess the conclusion is I am really bad in starting a relationship. I am just a boar..

Busy!!!

OMG!!! Today is 8 Jan 2009.. Man.. I had been busy for the last 8 days.. What am I doing? Work Work Work !!! I was thinking this year will be the same year as before.. I am going to try stay low profile as possible till feb... Don't ask me why... if you really know something about me, that is.. I am unpredictable.. I liked to make people guess. If you can guess why I want to stay low profile for Jan.. I will give you a treat. ;) haha!!!

Sat and Sun will be my rest day.. Hmm... Still Sat is the only day we can come out to play. haha!! Sun.. I will rest at home I guess. ;p